Not quite out of Disney – an update12.01.08

I haven’t posted for quite awhile, so here’s a mind-numbing update for y’all.

Let’s see… NaNoWriMo… well, I never wrote a line! Instead, I got this weird motivation to work on my Associates in Graphic Design from Penn Foster, and whadya know, I went from having started last January and not doing a thing to about a third of the way through the first semester of coursework. Lots and lots and lots of time to study at work, it would seem. Also lots of time to write, but like I said, my brain decided on something else. Just as well – I have a year to finish a semester without having to pay for extensions. At the rate I’m heading, I actually might be able to do so. :-)

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Hot dang, you oughta see my f-list!11.05.08

I haven’t felt so many emotions come blazing at me like I have tonight. Happy, sad, contemplative, angry, joyful, you name it.

Yes, I voted for Obama. And YES, I’m damned proud of it.

Everybody else has gone into the “making history and defining moments” thing so I won’t expound upon that.

But what I will say, to the Democrats, Republicans, Independents, Green Party peeps, whomever, whatever you are -

I’m damned proud of all of you. We had huge turnouts at the polls, which means peeps got off their behinds and actually did something to make a difference.

Both men gave marvelous speeches. McCain’s concession speech was worth of the class act that he is, and for all that I didn’t vote for him, I was very touched by how he carried himself so gracefully. He definitely did right by his party and I wish him nothing but the best.

As for Obama’s acceptance speech… well, wow, is all I can say. A big WOW. :-)

BTW, here’s a stupendously stupid and mind-boggling one for you:

One of the folks on my f-list was defriended by two people tonight because of her political stance. For all that she’s a Republican and I’m a Democrat, I STILL cannot believe the idiodicy of basing friendships on political beliefs. That just fries my brain, and it’s already kinda charred around the edges to begin with. Unfuckingbelievable.

{{{{{ HUGS TO MY FLIST }}}}}

(FYI, I’m up this late because I start on third shift tonight and am getting myself in gear for it.)

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Oh, and another thing…11.02.08

Jo aka  also brought this one up, and since it’s been an irritation for me for sometime, I’m gonna address it just like I always do – straight and to the point.

/rant on

I love House. I love the character, the show, the supporting cast, plots good and not-so-good. Hugh Laurie and RSL are both unbelievably hot, adding to the enjoyment. The show isn’t perfect, and honestly I don’t care. I’m still enormously entertained, I don’t care how realistic or unrealistic the situations are. House is a jerk – that hasn’t changed. Wilson isn’t much better. Kutner is made of awesomeness. There’s much, much more and unless Hugh Laurie himself leaves I’ll probably watch right up to the last day.

Which brings me to my “irritation.” Why, in the name of the Goddess, do people complain and gripe about a show, then CONTINUE TO WATCH IT??? Then continue to complain and gripe, start whole threads on how much they hate the show, but still keep watching it? What are they, masochists or something? For Goddess’ sake, stop watching House and go watch something you DO enjoy. Or take up knitting. Whatever.

And for Chrissakes, one of the dumbest things I’ve ever read is people hating the show because their ‘ship didn’t sail! House and Cameron did NOT continue forth – from midway through the first seaon on, and we’re on Season Five. House and Cuddy’s “ship” will probably die within a show or two. House and Wilson will *never* materialize. My suggestion? Get over it. Or write fan fiction to direct the way you think it should have gone. But hate a show because of a ship that never happened? And bitch about it in replies? Are these people serious? Slashers are *used* to it! Shows change, move forward, characters grow, evolve, change, learn from their experiences. It happens. If you don’t like that and quit watching the show, fine! But come into comms and gripe about it? At least knitting is productive!

Sometimes I wonder if someone shouldn’t just start a comm for House-Haters, to give all these people a place to go and let off steam. Seriously.

/rant off

Okay, done ranting now. All that’s left are the rotten tomatoes, so have at it. I’m tough. ;-)

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Of Job-Hunts, Sad Farewells, and a Whole New Life Approaching…11.02.08

After reading Jo’s post, I realized I’m way behind, long overdue, and have been silent on this end for awhile.

I’ve been ungodly busy for about six weeks, all in the name of finding, getting, and starting a new job. Finally!

It all started when I got fed up with being behind on rent, behind on bills, and floating checks in order to make it from one paycheck to the next. Never mind the payday loan that I just rolled over again, the car with a sagging bumper, paint peeling, the cruise control that I’ve depended on to allow me to drive long distances, the need for new brakes, etc.. I was holding up fairly well until Rich married and moved out (certainly not a bad thing that he did, of course!), taking half the household income with him. It had been a downhill slide ever since, and I saw only one way out.

What do you do, though, when there’s a recession on and everybody is in the midst of a hiring freeze? Figuring nothing would come of it I posted my updated resume on Dice, fielded the usual phone calls for jobs I wasn’t qualified for, or that someone else had sold their contract first on, thus starting, I thought, another round of disappointment. Ever since Bush signed legislation that gave big businesses tax breaks for outsourcing to other countries, the job field of Technical Support has had the bottom fall out of it. Naturally I expected this round of job-hunting to go the same way as the rest.

A few days after my resume went up, I received a phone call from a recruiter down in Springfield, Illinois, our state capital, and home to a lot of government agencies and workers. The company was Rose International, one I’d never heard of, and the company that now had all of the IT contracts with the Department of Children and Family Services – with four years left in the current six-year contract and probably at least a couple more years beyond that to go. I cheerfully had my phone interview with the recruiter, did everything they wanted me to with background checks, drug testing and such, then… nothing. I was disappointed and about to write them off when they emailed me out of the blue, apologized for the delay, and asked me if I’d still be interested in the position.

At wages that were a third more than what I was currently making, and some really good benefits to go with, you bet I was still interested. What’s more, the DCFS manager in charge of their help desk was willing to wait until my day off for me to interview. I drove the sixty miles, did my best to win them over, filled out a second, very lengthy background check, then waited… again. Just as I was about to give up for a second time I heard from the hiring manager at Rose. DCFS wanted *me,* out of several they’d interviewed. I accepted readily, then sat in shock after I got off my cell phone.

(FYI, the newest trend in job interviewing is via cell phone in your current employer’s parking lot. I’ve seen others do it, and later my then-manager admitted that had been how he’d gotten his job with Mediacom.)

The rest I’ve detailed in a previous post, so as to not be redundant I won’t cover that ground again. :-)

What it all boils down to is if I hadn’t lost all that weight I would never have had the energy and ability to go job-hunting, interviewing, and all the things that require *drive* to accomplish. I’ve lost 68 lbs and still shrinking, and landing this job has made everything worth-while.

DCFS, so far, has turned out to be as laid-back as Mediacom, with one exception – absolutely no web-browsing except for business reasons. Sigh. I’ll be working third shift, probably take less than ten calls a night, and I can’t web browse. So, I’m going to take all of my unfinished fic on my thumb drive and *write* like crazy. I’m also going to study for a MS certification, since my new manager expects that to be accomplished within the first year. Everyone wears jeans whenever they feel like it, is outrageously silly, and so far they’re going out of their way to make me feel comfortable. My manager comes across as extremely nice – sometimes I wonder if he’s for real, since I’ve been burned so bad by management in the past. However, I’ve watched my co-workers interact with him, all positive, so I have my fingers crossed. They also have a hiring freeze on, but the Help Desk is considered mission-critical, even on third shift due to the 24-Hour Child Abuse Hotline and a couple of divisions open 24/7 in the Chicago area.

I have a real cubicle, 19 inch dual monitors and a dual-processor computer, don’t have to steal pens or use scraps of paper to take notes on, and if I lean out of my cubicle there’s this amazing view of Springfield. It’s *quiet* – the sounds echoing off the ceiling at a call center can be boggling. Monday will be my last day on the day shift; Thursday I’ll start third shift, midnight to nine a.m. Fortunately I’m an owl. :-)

The next step is to move, which looks as though to be over Winter Break when Bobby is home.

Meanwhile, I miss Rich and Kalaab, especially. I’m job-hunting for Richie; he says I’m his job-hunt lucky charm, since every long-term job he’s ever had I’ve discovered and suggested he apply for. I’m still shocked I got this one, since there are *no* Help Desk positions to be found anywhere. None. Nada.

Kalaab’s wife is due within the next couple of weeks, as well, so I’m hoping to see him after the baby is born.

Everything is changing and I’m walking around, bewildered, a little frightened, trying to be realistic. BIG SIGH.

Geez, talk about rambling!

Wish me luck.

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New Job, new town, new 3D male model, it never ends…10.10.08

Well, I did it. Finally.

After almost six years of working in a busy call center, I have found my way out of Mediacom’s Midwest Regional Headquarters. In spades.

About three weeks ago a recruiter from Rose International called me after having read my resume on Dice. The position was as a Tier 1 Representative for the Department of Children and Family Services in Springfield, IL, about an hour from here, on a six-year contract. The pay was about a third more than I’m currently making, great benefits – with one (minor) catch – the shift is good old 3rd shift, from midnight to nine am. Fortunately my kids are grown and gone, and I like the late-night thing.

Needless to say I jumped at the chance, apparently a lot faster than DCFS! Rose Int did a background check on me, then DCFS did a criminal background check on me (she downloads MP3′s and Poser add-ons? Wow, hardened criminal here!) and found *nothing* as expected. Then I had to pass a drug test (yesterday morning, when I had a “doctor’s appointment” and had to come in late to work.). Then today I got an email from the Hiring Manager at the Corporate Office, and we took it from there.

The last step is fingerprinting, but DCFS has always said (according to Dana, said hiring manager) that the employee can go ahead and start once the drug test is cleared, but if something turned up in the fingerprints I’d be escorted to the door. My reaction? (which cracked up Dana to no end) – “The only person to have *any* prints of mine is my doctor with my footprints – and he’s dead.”

Once we’d agreed on that I went back inside (was using my cell phone in my car for all of this), typed up and turned in my two weeks notice/letter of resignation. In it I was *extremely* tactful, as I don’t ascribe to the Burn Your Bridges approach that some do. However, my supervisor read it, read between the lines and grinned at me – he knew better.

My buddy Kalaab, aka The Pick, aka one of mine and Rich’s best friends and also one of our bosses was also understanding, but admitted he’s taking it pretty hard. He’s wanting to throw me a grand send-off at a local bar, complete with his guitar (he’s friggin’ awesome), and I’ve agreed that would be fine.

The general reaction has been shocked – I think everyone thought I’d be another “lifer” as I’d been there so long. The guy sitting next to me, Ron, looked like he’d lost his last friend. Another guy leaned over my cubicle wall and gave me a sad puppy-dog eye expression. If I could take the whole bundle of co-workers with me I would, as most of them are extremely good people. Most. ;-)

So, in two weeks I’ll be out of there and starting on the 27th at DCFS. It’s business casual and I guess even jeans are allowed, but I’ll wait and see when I get there. It’s entry-level, which means I can only go up, and I’m starting in a good wage bracket for that. I’ll commute at first, until I get settled in, then I plan to move. It’s a bit scary for me. Since the divorce I’ve never lived far from my parents and sisters, and now my oldest son. I’m going to be completely on my own and I’m not quite sure what to make of it. All I can do is continue to pray for guidance and follow the will of the Goddess.

In other miscellaneous news, NaNoWriMo is next month. Oy. Also, I have *two* very late CGI pieces to do with the  community. I’m waiting to finish up because there’s a new male 3D model from Daz3D coming out known as Michael 4, and his face looks much more morphable than the last version. I *still* can’t get House’s face the way I’d like, so I’m going to see if I can accomplish it with an entirely different model. So, to those waiting on said graphics, patience! Finally, I joined the  comm in search of guidance as I work to get some Wilson-centric fic going even further. We’ll see. :-)

And I think that’s it. For now.

I’ve got several new folks on my f-list, and I’d like to welcome y’all. Unfortunately I *suck* at replying, even in my own journal. But, I am reading – and enjoying! :-)

Blessed Be!

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“Controversial” Meme of a sorts10.02.08

Swiped from

Sorta interesting, although I don’t think I’ll surprise my f-list too much. ;-)

1. Would you do meth if it was legal? Nope. I value my body, my brain and my life.

2. Abortion: for or against it? Tricky question. I’m pro-choice in that I believe I have no right to dictate to other females about what they can or cannot do with their bodies. OTH I would probably crawl on 10,000 miles of broken glass before I would ever have one myself.

3. Do you think the world would fail with a female president? Hardly. Besides, look who is currently in charge and re-think that question. We’re lucky that *men* haven’t destroyed us!

4. Do you believe in the death penalty? Yup, I do.

5. Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already? Definitely. In comparison to alcohol, it’s certainly no more dangerous. Of course, the alcohol industry has something called “lobbyists.”

6. Are you for or against premarital sex? For. Didn’t have it myself (I was probably the last of the existing virgins in my graduating class) but I have no issue with those have premarital sex. OTH I *do* feel that kids should be properly educated as to the risks and safe sex habits, whether it’s from school or parents or preferably *both.* Information didn’t stop my oldest, but at least he didn’t get any diseases or get anyone pregnant.

7. Do you believe in God? I believe in duality of Deity – gods and goddesses – and that they all come from one God and one Goddess, and that they descend from the One that we all come from.

8. Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized? Definitely, and long overdue.

9. Do you think it’s wrong that so many Hispanics are illegally moving to the USA? I’ve got some mixed feelings on that one – probably more related to employment as much as anything else. However, I do think sitting at borders and chasing illegal immigrants is just plain stupid and a waste of taxpayers’ money. Kinda like the equally stupid War on Drugs. Or in Iraq.

10. A twelve year old girl has a baby, should she keep it? My first reaction is a big fat NO. My second reaction is that it would depend on the kid and the support within her family. My third reaction is that I’d hope she would never have gotten that way to begin with. Silly me, always an optimist.

11. Should the alcohol age be lowered to eighteen? Anybody old enough to die for their country is old enough to have a beer. Period. Oh, and for the record, I have probably all of five drinks a year, so I definitely am NOT an alcholic. :-)

12. Should the war in Iraq be called off? Should never have started to begin with.

13. Assisted suicide is illegal: do you agree? No, as long as the patient’s best interests are being served and protected, not those of greedy relatives or what-have-you.

14. Do you believe in spanking your children? Nope. Spanked my oldest when he was little, then reversed myself and went with what we at La Leche League call “Loving Guidance,” part of the Attachment Parenting style. It worked wonderfully. Also, I have always, always felt that the best form of parenting is leading by example..

15. Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars? Only if it needed disposed of. Otherwise, no. Something about burning our flag disturbs me, and I can’t explain it.

16. Who do you think would make a better president? McCain or Obama? OBAMA. Hands down.

17. Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers? Nah. Most of the people I know are just as crazy as I am. :-)

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Comm – <lj user=”ficfinishing”>10.01.08

Those of you on my f-list who are stalled out on a story (or a hundred) might find this comm of interest:

It’s a support comm to lend a hand to those who want to finish fan fiction but don’t know where to start. This go-around enough of us begged to get House added to the lineup. To quote from this month’s signup post:

Our fandoms this Round: Numb3rs, Criminal Minds, Heroes, Blood Ties, Doctor Who, Torchwood, Bones, NCIS, Supernatural, Charmed, Blake’s 7, Veronica Mars, Psych, Miracles, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Angel, Firefly, House, Stargate SG-1 and Stargate Atlantis.

I’ve signed up to finish (or at least work on at a satisfying rate) my sequel to “The Touch” called “Never and Always.” I’d like to get a fair amount of it done before NaNoWriMo next month. I figure if enough House fans sign up we could all support each other in our endeavors. Or, for that matter, if enough from my f-list sign up, we could *still* support each other, no matter what the fandom. :-)

So, if you feel at a loss, have writer’s block, or what-have-you, go check out the comm! It might be just the thing you’re looking for. :-)

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Lyrics: Metallica – “The Unforgiven III” (from Death Magnetic)09.18.08

Ever since the new season of House started, I’ve been obsessed with “The Unforgiven III.” I feel it from Wilson’s viewpoint, but it could just as easily be House.

I will also say that for the first time in Goddess knows how long Metallica has put out one helluvan album.

“The Unforgiven III”

from the album Death Magnetic – Metallica

How could he know
This new dawn’s light
Would change his life forever?

Set sail to sea
But pulled off course
By the light of golden treasure

Was he the one causing pain
With his careless dreaming?
Been afraid
Always afraid
Of the things he’s feeling

He could just be gone
He would just sail on
He’ll just sail on

How can I be lost,
If I’ve got nowhere to go?
Search for seas of gold
How come it’s got so cold?

How can I be lost?
In remembrance I relive
And how can I blame you
When it’s me I can’t forgive?

These days drift on
Inside a fog
It’s thick and suffocating

His sinking life
Outside it’s hell
Inside, intoxication

He’s run aground
Like his life
Water much too shallow

Slipping fast
Down with his ship
Fading in the shadows

Now a castaway
They’ve all gone away
They’ve gone away

How can I be lost
If I’ve got nowhere to go?
Search for seas of gold
How come it’s got so cold?

How can I be lost?
In remembrance I relive
And how can I blame you
When it’s me I can’t forgive?

Forgive me
Forgive me not
Forgive me
Forgive me not
Forgive me
Forgive me not
Forgive me
Forgive me
Why can’t I forgive me?

Set sail to sea
But pulled off course
By the light of golden treasure

How could he know
This new dawn’s light
Would change his life forever?

How can I be lost,
If I’ve got nowhere to go?
Search for seas of gold
How come it’s got so cold?

How can I be lost?
In remembrance I relive
So how can I blame you
When it’s me I can’t forgive?

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Creating Cuddy09.16.08

My son actually freaked when I im’d him this at work today. Said it was the best morph I’d done yet.

Working on this one for the Get-House-Laid comm, definitely gonna be (and am already) late – too much strange shit going on here lately. o_O

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My Interests Collage – Meme09.13.08

Something I haven’t done in awhile – a meme. :-)

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